While trying to keep marital rants to a minimum .., vol. 1

I used to have a blog called 'Conversations Never Had' in which I could expel angst, while steering clear of an unlistening hubby.  In our all's-fair-in-love-and-war romance, more and more unfinished business was eating away at the bond of our intimacy.  I took up blogging about two and a half years ago as an effort to coach my husband into 'loving me right'.

He got so sick of me that he boycotted all of my interests for two-and-a-half years.  That included porn.  So we've grown distant in that hobby.  We haven't picked this topic up formally, since our long ten-month separation ended.  No train wrecks so far, but there are so many sexual topics worth addressing.

Without trust, a sexual transaction can feel like unfair bargaining in a power exchange.  A soul can get bruised in matters of the heart.  We haven't formed a new compact of trust on these matters since our joyful reunion.  The gingerly pace of our quest for consensus is, frankly, holding up my porn life.
Okay, enough ranting.